This is a reflection for my LDR 101 class. The prompt states the following:
Over the weekend, go out and do something totally new for you. Type 1 page reflecting on the experience– what you did, why you did it, how you felt before, during, after? What did you learn?
1 September 2015
I didn’t do anything spectacular this weekend. In fact, it was quite ordinary. I did the things I usually do on weekends: sleep, eat, sleep some more, work on homework, teach at my masjid’s Sunday school. I simply did all the things I needed to do. However, in doing so, I did end up having to do one new thing.
I just got my driver’s license this summer (I turned 18 a couple months ago), and the only place I’d driven to by myself at that point was school. I take Clairemont Road to go to school, and that’s almost my entire route, so it’s pretty straightforward. However, to get to the masjid, I had to go on the highway. This shouldn’t have been a problem in itself; I drove with my dad to the masjid every night in Ramadan, and I survived that. But I’d never driven there, or anywhere on the highway, alone, and it didn’t seem quite as fun. Before leaving, I considered asking one of my parents to drop me off, but they were sleeping, and I would’ve been late. So, just because I needed to, I headed out alone. And, because I seem to enjoy causing myself anxiety, I decided not to use a GPS and figure out the route from memory. As soon as I started driving, I learned that I was actually pretty scared. The sky was pouring sheets of rain, and as I drove, I couldn’t see too well in front of me because of the mist from the cars around me. I found myself loudly reciting whatever prayers and verses of Quran came to my mind and didn’t stop until I got there. And I did get there–without getting lost, too.
As I parked in the parking deck, I felt hugely relieved, a little silly about the constant thoughts of “I’m going to die and my mom’s going to be so mad at me,” and quite thankful to have made the drive without incident. I also felt a little better about my driving skills. I still won’t let any non family members in a car I’m driving, at least not until next year, but I feel a little less prone to injury and death. I’m still kind of new to this whole driving by myself thing, and really just doing things by myself, and it scares me a lot, but I’ve learned that if I just go for something, don’t overthink it, and also maybe pray a whole lot, things get easier.